Silent Sunday, before the raucous of Cinco de Mayo in Santa Fe. Awakening to the thread of emotion after watching
“The Only Thrill” a movie made in 1997 with Shepard and Keaton. Shepard says,” NO! Things don’t just work out,
you have to make it happen.”
when THEY Leave
SPREAD OF JOY
BOSTON BOMBS BACK
IMAGINE, if you were in Boston
On the day of the flare
and it fired your daughter
and you dived in the dare
Hell rises
and heaven opens
the souls are not lost
they are moments to bare
BOSTON, is the angel
that brought the fire to lair.
mark Walberg and matt Damon
OUR BLOODY TIME IS OUT
Forget about gun control. That should have been resolved nine years ago.
Now! Start looking for bombs; where does billions of dollars go to?
How many agencies? How many meetings? How many laws passed?
How could you allow this to happen? Runner’sย legs were amputated.
You told us, we were safe.
WHY WRITE
Dad used to say, the only thing I have to show for my life, is you.
Just cause I write doesn’t mean that I have something to say,
that isn’t already known. I write for everyone that feels something different, and no one wants to listen.ย
It’s my life.
Dad in Beverly Hills Court. On a charge for not registering as a criminal. He moved to Bel Air.
MIDDLE CLASS, MIDDLE-AGE MAP TO WHERE??
I rolled the dice this morning; got seven. This always lifts me UN-proportionately to
the triumph. ย What is a seven going to do? Nothing. The dice don’t do it;ย what happens Is
I believe it’s a lucky day;ย like the wind won’t knock down my outdoor writing arrangement,
and I’ll be able to write for hours, and not be interrupted by registered letters, construction noise coming
from the new Drury Hotel,ย or tenant complaints.
Whatย we all treasure and wish we could stack up in a treasure chest is piles of peace from whatever our lives do to make us nervous, edgy, and cuffed. Or we stop the behavior which I think is more difficult.
If you’re a middle class, middle-aged person who expectedย to be retired in Costa Rica by now with a book and a bottle, then you have to rearrange the internal map.ย 
I ‘ll never retire from writing; I hope one day I can live in my home again.
THE LEGEND LADY OF PALACE AVE
The throw of the dice this week lands on adventures in livingness; one day at a time. People with terminal illness, suffering from a shattered romance, a death of a friend, a natural disaster, always say the same thing; One day at a time.
Walking up Palace Avenue on a day spread with sunlight, and a continuum of power walkers, bikers and runners, passing by in whiffs of urgency, I took my time. I didnโt feel like flexing, just evaporating into the shadows, and the moving clouds. I walked by a little adobe, that once was a dump site for empty bottles, cartons, worn out furniture, and piles of wood. A year later, the yard is almost condominium clean. Just as I was passing the driveway, the little woman whom Iโd seen walking up Palace with her bag of groceries, appeared like a gust of history in the driveway of her adobe casita. She wore her heavy blanket like coat and a bandanna on her head. Regardless of weather, sheโs bundled up in the same woven Indian coat and long wool skirt. I stood next to her, a foot or so taller, and she unraveled history, without my prompting. She told me about the Martinez family, the Montoyas, and the Abeytas, all families she knew, all with streets named after them. Estelle asked me my name, and then took my hand in her weathered unyielding grip, โOh I had an Aunt named Lucero, and we called her LouLou.โ She didnโt let go of my hand, and then she told me that the families, some names Iโve forgotten, bought homes on Palace in 1988 for $50,000, She shook her finger to demonstrate her point. โYou know how many houses the Garcias bought? Five! Then they fixed them up and sold them.โ
I could have stood there in the gravel driveway listening to Estelle all afternoon. She owns the oral history I love to record; but it is difficult to understand her, she talks with the speed of a southwest wind. We parted and I thought about the times in my life when the smallest of interactions elevates my spirit. In older people, who are not addicted to gadgets and distant intimacy, I’m reminded of how speed socializing has diminished the opportunity for a sidewalk chat.
ย

IF
If I don’t forget where I’m relocating all my clothes, books, tapes, CD’s, DVD’s,ย files and shoes, for summer vacation guests, If Rudy doesn’t get pulled over for driving without a license, If the tenant at Follies House doesn’t break his lease,ย If the tenants that moved into the Taos house from San Francisco to build a dream,
don’t lose faith, and If the Lexipro keeps working,
ย I can listen to the musical score from Man and a Woman,ย tap dance around the house, with the sunlight, the birds, the grass turning green with life, and I’m happy.
TWO PATHS SAME END
A WISH FOR THE academy awards
” Who are you really excited about seeing tonight?”
Oh I am not excited in the way you ask. I am excited to
escape to tinsel tipsy two-liner Hollywood and just listen
to those speed talking talking ladies chirp, and then I am
a serious film follower. So the films are what it’s all about. I wish there were more in-dept discussions about the FILM MAKERS STORY, THE ACTORS STORY, AND HOW THE STORY GOT TO SCREEN , FROM THE SCREEN WRITERS AND PRODUCERS.
The behind the movie story has it’s own merit in this turbulent financial fiscal
%&*(%$#$%^ era.





