Unless you’ve lived in a four seasons city, you just can’t understand how transformational and redivivus the vernal expectation of spring. My mind feels like someone has loosened the screws, and a willowy feeling fills the body so when I walk my steps waver, without any alcohol. This spring is like a substance prescription after one of the gloomiest winters of my life.
THE CLASSMATE THAT wrote is named Andrew. I imagine heโs married; a man with his looks and gregarious personality living in Los Angeles all these years. Maybe he married one of our high school classmates. We exchanged a few emails in two thousand eight, he’d just returned from a trip to Poland and I was managing the gallery. Then the crash came and I think my correspondence dropped. Why was he thinking of me? I don’t have any photographs from high school, I suppose I could look him up in the yearbook. I’ll wait till he writes again.
The sky is crystal blue, and the temperature a mild fifty degrees. From my window, the leaves dropping makes me think the trauma and suffering the last four years has dropped from my life. What the trauma was about is irrelevant and too lengthy to write. We all get sent to the chopping block of heartache and this was mine. This is as liberating as taking off a tight bra after a long day!
Maxfield Parrish
September has traditionally been my month of transition. It’s a sort of pattern that began years ago and so making decisions is as if I’m on a time clock. What is most essential now is finding a new place to call home. I began looking at Santa Barbara. I loved visiting the city by the sea, those beautiful mountains, and quaint craftsman architecture. So what if I don’t know anyone, I’ll be alone regardless of where I move. Easily accomplished in my fifties, not so improvisational at sixty-seven.
Rapturous Autumn day; this year the transformation of nature, outdoor activities, cider doughnuts, smoking fireplaces, and a crispness that reminds me of breaking open a head of lettuce. What really happens to us in the East is fall descends like a new stage and the props from summer are removed. The mums come out on the porches, and the bright yellow and gold plants dot every porch. The conventional lifestyle and customary activities placate our sense of belonging. Christmas, wow, it’s only a short time till winter. In the dressing room unpacking more sweaters, socks, warm-ups, I get an alert, another email. Andrew added another compliment so my response was crush-worthy. Why not? Maybe fantasy is what is needed. Remerging silhouettes, all of us on the front lawn at lunch time, and boys are pairing up with girls and Andrew is laughing, making clownish faces and gestures, yes he was crush-worthy. He walked in long strides, visible energy and every step seemed to have a purpose. The boy I was in love with graduated, and I did not have a boyfriend. My shyness and restrained conversational skills excluded me from invitations to date. Maybe that’s why he didn’t take notice of me observing him, a lot of classmates had crushes on him.
The reality of COVID-19 is now the centerfold story because it is affecting everyone; the excruciating financial loss, death, sickness, and loneliness. It’s more like acceptance that this is our job now to tolerate COVID-19. Restrictions, circumstances of failed businesses we all loved, fear, and more fear call for an imaginary friend who I haven’t seen in fifty years. He replied with a formal note of response that he was on Facebook and could we be friends. I wrote back, yes. I am listening to the soundtrack from the film A Man and A Woman while chopping vegetables for soup. This music has formed a flame of optimism for the day I’m in love and let go of singleness.
On Facebook Andrew’s feature photos reveal the teenager I remember. He is a photographer, a Neuro Technician, and in his twenties an actor and model โฆ hum, sounds like my resume, professional career changer. His photos sent a quiver through my veins, a call to read everything on his page, and view videos of his European travels: beautifully crafted images of architecture, monuments, art, culture, and locals. It deepened my understanding of his life just by his photos and posts. The other side, his appearance; the facial features, keen brown eyes, uncensored or rehearsed self-photos, group photos with our high school mates at the reunions, his long wavy hair, and his defined lips and cheekbones tingled curiosity.
The photos of Andrew at the class reunions next to my best friend and other classmates I remembered brought a snowstorm of memories. How I loved my friends back then. About six of us went everywhere together; bought our first bras, learned to drive, went to Westwood Village to look for cute boys, sat in the booths at Mario’s Pizza, Hamburger Hamlet, and The Apple Pan and all of it on ten or twenty dollars a week allowance. I have not been to a reunion since the tenth. Andrew posted photos from several. He stayed connected. Fifty years have passed, and he’s on my mind. To be continued.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย Maurice did things for us that no one had. It started with small gestures, like inviting us inside every time we passed by his house. Even if he was on his way to deliver furniture he’d scuttle to the kitchen and give us homegrown tomatoes, and oranges, or hand me a bouquet from his flower garden. ย These were the early years of my story submission rejections. ย I was so consumed with rejection that the only person in the world that made me feel human was Maurice. He didnโt understand what my torment was about, but he knew how to make it go away.ย Sometimes all it took was a big hug and a kiss. Maurice always met me with a hug and kiss, though I didnโt realize at the time how much he knew what I needed.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย That Christmas I felt the spirit because of Maurice. I went to Sav-On and collected a basket of decorations, and though we had no room for a tree, I did what I could. Instead of wishing I could dash into Nordstroms and shop like a madwoman, I dug a little deeper and searched for appreciation gifts for friends.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย By the time the season had ended, I was fixated on Maurice. It is strange to write about him now.ย The story I wanted to write was about Del Mar, and Solana Beach, California during the thirties and forties.ย I searched the indexes of the Del Mar Library and the local bookstores and shared the antiquities with Maurice.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย We were sitting on his cushy pillowed sofa one evening in 1994, sipping chilled southern comfort, and snacking on saltine crackers and cheese. There is always a subject of interest with Maurice. He is seventy-five years old, lean and tough as a stalk of corn, with blue eyes that twinkle even if he’s not in the light. His wealth came from the uniqueness of how he lived.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โTell me what you remember about Del Mar.โ
Old Del Mar.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โOh so many good times, not like it is today. I knew just about everybody, we were like a family.โย Sometimes Maurice shared memories while driving around Del Mar and Solana Beach. ย Suddenly he would start talking, ย and Iโd would listen with childlike curiosity. I recall one evening at the old Cilantro Restaurant while having dinner with Maurice.ย We sat at a table facing the Rancho Santa Fe Polo field.ย Maurice began to tell me how it used to be.ย Rancho Santa Fe
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โI used to plow those fields there, all the way up to where the hills begin. ย I worked out there all day, and I loved it. That land belonged to the Conleys’. I remember that the whole field was underwater for one year. Hard to believe–but it was.”ย
ย ย ย ย ย โYou plowed?โ
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โSure I did! I was a farmer, a dairy farmer, and I delivered milk to Bing Crosby and Dixie Lee.ย I rememberย Christmas she comes out and gives me some extra money.–I always loved going there at Christmas. They was always so nice to me, you know. The Conley’s had a hog ranch, they were the ones I worked for. The year it flooded from El Camino Real to the racetrack we lost a bunch of pigs and a cow under the bridge.ย It only happened twice that I know of.”ย ย ย
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โ What was Rancho Santa Fe like back then, when you were a farmer?”ย ย
ย ย ย ย ย “Well, it was different than today, then it was rich people, I mean really rich.ย I don’t know where they got their money but they had everything–you know expensive cars, cooks, and maids.โ Maurice chuckled, โ I couldn’t understand what the cook did all day. The man my wife worked for, Ronald McDonald, he had a butler, maid, cook, and a big house, a really nice house. But today, anyone can live there, people who just inherited a lot of money.ย There was just a few families back then– everyone knew who they was. One time a young girl who lived up there was stuck on the road–her car broke down, so I drove her home. You did things like that. There were two really well-known families there, the Clotfelters were one, they had a son, Tom. He stopped by my house at Christmas and brought me a fish, he liked to fish.ย ย The other big family was Avery, he had everything. He used to get jobs for the Mexicans in the Ranch. Everyone knew him, he kind of ran the whole town, was really active in the community.ย Another fellow, Joe White, went around to the homes and put in the meters for the water district. We used to play cards with him and his wife, Marilyn– have a few drinks and have a such a good time. ”ย Maurice stopped and shaking his head remarked that there were so many wonderful people in his life, and how lucky he was to live in Solana Beach.
Downtown Rancho Santa Fe.ย
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย The Rancho Santa Fe I knew began when Iย moved there in nineteen-eighty-three. It was a place you heard of right away, and so I drove up to take a look around. Like thousands of others before me, I dreamt of living in the Ranch under a canopy of Eucalyptus trees with a horse stable and a grove of oranges. It was a blissful place to drive on a Sunday afternoon, very few cars on the road and the homes bathed in sunlight. But when I walked down Paseo Delicias, the main road in the village, ย I felt like an outsider. I did not feel that detachment in Del Mar, or Solana Beach, or even La Jolla. But the Ranch has eyes, it seemed to single you out and therefore no one on the inside made contact with you. You could dine at the charming Mille Fleurs and drop a few hundred dollars but you would not be invited to mingle. I asked Maurice if he wanted to live in the Ranch. His expression was curious as if I was pulling his leg.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ONE EVENING, Rudy and I were sitting on the porch, it was in summer and we would sit out till after eight oโclock at night talking about different parts of Mauriceโs life. ย He is really busy in the summer, he works one day a week gardening for a man in Fairbanks ranch, and he spends a lot of time delivering furniture for the shops in Cedros Design District, and helping his friends with their gardens. He never seems tired; he likes to sit on the porch at dusk, watch the sunset, have a jigger and tell stories.ย I had not met a man that could tell me things like Maurice. ย There didn’t seem to be anything he couldn’t talk about. I will tell you in the next series how I met, โthe happiest man in the world.โ
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ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โ Maurice, how old were you when you were drafted?โ I asked.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โ Well,ย I was thirty-one years old, that was in 1941, you know when the war broke out. I had to leave my wife, and that bothered me, but I wanted to go overseas, there were so many nice real young boys, there were two boys from Chicago that were only eighteen years old, they lied to get in, and they were the best soldiers you ever saw, they weren’t afraid of anything.”
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โ Where did they send you, I mean after you left San Diego?โ
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โ Well first I went to Camp Roberts for training, thirteen weeks, but I got out in nine weeks, then they send me to Fort Ord to get my gear and rifles and clothes to go to New Guinea to fight the Japanese. We left San Francisco on April 21, 1942, I remember going under the Golden Gate Bridge, cause we hit a bad storm there. We was on a luxury liner and then we were sideswiped by another ship.ย I was in the bed at the time, and water started coming in through the porthole so I run for the door, to get on deck but I couldn’t get it open. I thought we were hit by a torpedo, then I got sick, I was real sick. Well anyway, then we finally settled down, and I think we hit coral sea ย without any escort or anything and finally got into Adelaide, Australia after twenty-one days at sea.”ย Maurice paused like he had to catch a breath. I watched his face, thinking he may want to stop.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โ You remember so much, do you mind talking about it?โ I asked.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โ No, I donโt mind, it changed my life, everything about it.โ
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โ Where did they send you after that?โ
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โ Well we trained for awhile in Adelaide, the people in Australia were so happy to see us.ย I remember they met us at the beach with tea and cookies cause the enemy were getting real close. Then we went up the coast to New Guinea to Port Moresby, we got there on Thanksgiving day 1942. As soon as we got off the ship the bombs hit us, it was the hundredth raid that night. Then the next morning we were supposed to get to Stanley Range, but we were in such a hurry because the enemy had built cement pillboxes. So we got in this plane, a hull, and they flew us, twenty-one at a time. When I got to the island of Buna, there were dead soldiers all over and so much jungle. At night the tide came in, so I found a mound to lay my head on, but my whole body was underwater. We were losing men so fast, so on Christmas 1942 General McArthur ordered us to advance, regardless of the cost of lives.ย My division was one of the first divisions to stop the them, the Thirty-Second division. After we were immobilized, and a lot of our men were killed, they sent in the Forty-First division to take over. I got pictures, you want to see them?โ
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โYES, RUDY,” SHOUTED. Maurice went inside and Rudy and I sat there just talking about how soft our lives had been, never having been in a war.ย Maurice came back with a Life Magazine, from 1942, the headlines were Attack at Buna.ย We sat next to Maurice on the couch and he sifted through the magazine showing us the photographs of his division. He picked out one photo in another stack in his lap and told us his wife kept this one, she was sure it was Maurice. It looked like him to.ย The soldiers were young, but they didn’t look young, they looked like men. The things he told us that night were hard to believe. They didn’t get supplies at first, they had to wait till everything was shipped to Europe, and then they got what was leftover which wasn’t much.
ย ย ย ย “I ate cocoanut bark for two weeks and had to drink my own piss to stay alive, there was no water. I can remember so well the first enemy I saw, sneaking through the jungle, he was only thirty feet off, and I don’t know if I shot him, but he dropped, and I don’t like to think I killed anyone, and it bothers me to this day that I had to kill, but that’s what we did.ย The Japanese were good soldiers, they had better ammunition than us, their guns were always real shiny. We fought all day, and we always ran out of ammunition before they did. Christmas day of forty-two we went into a trench to get ahead, the fellow ahead of me was cut wide open, and the guy behind was shot, and I just laid there on the ground. If you moved youโd be shot. It was so bad, I laid there all day and night. โ
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โ Did you think you were going to die?โ
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โ I didnโt let myself think that,ย I made a promise to God, that if I ever got out alive Iโd never complain about anything in my life again because nothing could be worse than that day.โย
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โ You kept the promise didn’t you,” I asked.ย
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โย Yes, I have.โ
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โ And thatโs why the war changed your life?โย ย
ย ย ย ย ย โ Thatโs right, every day is a beautiful day after you’ve lived through a war, at least for me.”ย ย
ย ย ย ย ย BUNAย came into our conversations many times over the years. The things they did to survive is what he remembered; like brushing his teeth with black charcoal because it polished the teeth even though they made them black. They bathed in dirty streams, or in the puddles in the street made by the tires of the trucks. They had to relieve themselves in their pants because moving was dangerous.ย They didn’t have modern medical supplies. When Maurice had cavities he was sent to the infirmary and the dentist told him to just grit his teeth, there was no Novocain. He got gum disease, leg rot, malaria, and he lost his sense of smell.ย
ย ย ย “But it was much worse for some of the men, so bad you canโt imagine.” He talked about the kinship amongst the troops, it was unlike anything heโd ever seen or experienced, all the guys looking out for each other. Buna was a strange place to be, Iโd never heard of it before Maurice told us. After they took over Buna, one of the beaches, was named Maggot Beach, because so many deadย Japanese and American soldiers laid there, in the hundred-degree heat, and the flies got to them, and it was a terrible sight, it smelled so bad he remembered.ย Maurice was sent to the hospital for two weeks, then he started working in the kitchen and got to be the first cook.
ย ย ย ย ย 2001. OUR CONTRY IS AT WAR AGAINST TERRORISM. Rudy and I wanted to know Mauriceโs thoughts on the way it is now, and how he felt.ย We sat in his living room watching the news and talking in those first few weeks after the attack on America. It seemed like Maurice couldnโt believe what had happened, Iโd never seen him speechless. He didnโt know what to say for a long time.ย ย ย ย
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โThe ground troops are the only way to get this enemy. Now with these terrorists– we have a different war. I don’t know what our government will do butย they should give our troops overseas that die big funerals, news on the television and newspaper, that’s the right thing to do. ย In WW11 they didnโt do that for any of us, they just wrapped the dead in a tarp, and dug a little hole in the ground. Hundreds and hundreds of thousands of boys, all they got was a stick where you was. I think they got some of the dog tags mixed up, you didnโt know who was who. When you think about what we went through, and how close you were to each other, everybody was so close, and if someone was shot, you couldnโt stop and help them, you had to keep going.ย The natives were so nice to us, so good to us, they picked up the wounded guys and carried them to the hospital, they wouldnโt do that for the Japanese. Now everything is on the television so you’re part of it.” ย Maurice began to weep silently. I hugged him. Rudy interjected.ย
ย ย ย ย ย ย “What were the natives like?”
ย ย ย ย ย ” Back then we called them headhunters. They didn’t wear any clothes at all, but after we got there some of them started wearing our clothes. They lived in bamboo huts, pretty neat to live in, Rudy, you would have liked those tents. Anyway, they had these powwows, theyโd catch a monkey, and hang him up, build a fire under him, and cinch the hair, then sit down and eat the monkey raw, I saw a lot of that. You didnโt dare look at the women, theyโd shoot you with an arrow, they had poisonous arrows, the women were so terribly dirty, but they seemed to be happy.ย After we took Buna, they liked to shoot up the trees and show us how they got the coconuts, they were so fast. I guess some of them are still alive today, the jungle was so thick and full of mosquitos, a lot of them had malaria, they had no medicine, they ate herbs and things, to make them better. I’ll never forget them, they were so good to us, when they took me to the hospital they put me on aย stretcher one time, they were so careful, didnโt move me at all.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โ You couldnโt speak at all to them?โ
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย โ No, they had their own language, I couldnโt understand it, no one did.โย ย ย ย ย
ย Maurice went into the house and came back with a photograph of a female headhunter. It was strange to think of this person as a woman, she was so primitive. Rudy loved the photograph. Maurice gave it to him. t. ย Rudy knew he would never see anything like it with his own eyes, so he cherished that picture and the story Maurice told us as if it was his own experience.ย ย ย ย
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย THEN THE LIGHT OF DAY TURNED FOGGY.ย Maurice said it was time to go in because it was getting cold.ย He told us how much he loved us that night, and what good friends we were. When Maurice talked of his experience in the war, it was like a chiropractic adjustment on my struggle, and I had renewed strength to just keep writing.
ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย It was the first time for Rudy to hear first hand about WW11 because his father had been stationed here making torpedoes. My father enlisted but they wouldnโt take him because he didnโt have citizenship. It bothered him too, he was the kind of man that would die for this country in a heartbeat.
ย ย ย ย ย ย A year or so later, some woman came to know Maurice and asked about his experience in the war. She said she would write a book about it, and so he gave her the photographs and Life Magazine and waited to hear from her. She never came back, and Maurice was really shocked because she had seemed so sincere.
ย ย ย ย ย I wanted to know more about his life after the war, but the time didn’t come until one night when Rudy and I got into a nasty fight. To be continued.
IN THESE TIMES OF DISTANCE, DEATH, DISCOURSE, AND ISOLATION what can I write of value? All month this puzzle chased my thoughts; nudged me like a pesky fly. At different intervals during the solemnness, my journal returned parched sketchy paragraphs, and books did not deliver the inspiration I craved. Listening to Beethoven as I gaze out the window at the blowing branches on a spring gray and white day, I feel a singleness I’ve never known. Maybe you feel the same, and it is you I am writing to because I know you are there. Singleness in quarantine is more incarcerating than it is for married, partnered, family people. Though they have to acclimatize to spacial hardship as everyone at home is at the same intersection without privacy, and that slogan I remember from college, โI need my space man,โ resonates. One friend said to me on the phone, โI yelled at my kids today, Iโve never done that before. Weโre bumping into each other. I think Iโm losing my mind.โ
US SINGLES are accustomed to solitude, especially if you are an artist. How we howl for isolation to create, and now we have it. The time is here, to skip down the most bizarre roads and create COVID-Art. A few weeks ago, Governor Cuomo delivered his press conference and said, โI have something to show you.โ A sliding door opened and a collage that appeared twelve feet in height displayed a tapestry of masks. He told us they came from all over the world. He was so touched by the gesture. Imagine a new solo dance performing an abstraction of the virus, or a poem, a song, and for sure a dozen or more writers and screenwriters are tapping at the speed of light to capture the pandemic in art form.
IโM GOING DOWNTOWN now to pick up a cobb salad from Sunset Grill, my stable for drinks and great food. The sky is in turmoil, as the clouds interchange across the sun, and she appears to be breaking through at one moment and the next she has revealed her radiance. I dress for the weather with a hat and coat and begin my three-block walk to downtown. When it begins to rain, I am smiling as Iโve always loved walking in the rain. As masked villagers pass, Iโm struck by the absence of smiles, or good afternoon which you get a lot in a village of five-thousand. Some younger couples cross the street when they see me, and heads are mostly lowered to the ground. A new silence emerges as cell phones are tucked into pockets and passing voices are inaudible.
I HAVEN’T HAD FACE TO FACE conversation for several days and I feel a sprinting joy in anticipation of a conversation with Eric or Brian who own the cafรฉ. Theyโve installed a take out window, and as I approach I see Brian, and he ducks down to greet me.
Hey Loulou, how are you?
โ At this moment I am so happy to see you!
He swings down a bit lower to pop his head through the window
โ So am I. We miss you.โ
โ I feel the same. How are you doing with all this.โ He is smiling, and heโs always a bit jumpy like he needs to go for a jog or a bike ride.
โWe had to let the staff go,โ now his smile turns to a gripping inner pain. My kid is washing dishes and weโre still here, but youโre the first customer today.โ
โWill you reopen when weโre off the pause button?
โ With twenty-five percent capacity, I donโt know. The numbers donโt work out so well. I mean weโll still do curbside.โ
Suddenly he turns about-face and joins me on the sidewalk touting my cobb salad. Brian must need a conversation as much I do. We chatted about the virus, our change of behavior, and this pent-up craving for closeness.
โ I canโt even go on a date anymore with someone! How can you meet anyone today?โ He gestures with his arms to emphasize his frustration.
โYeah, youโll have to take their temperature before you sit six feet away.โ We laughed, maybe for the first time in days.
AS I WALK BACK HOME my thoughts are traveling along the pathway of restaurants, I frequented in San Diego, Los Angeles, Taos, Santa Fe, and now here. I see the owners and waiters’ faces, remember the food and a visual kaleidoscope of the festive times we shared. You know that saying, the good olโ days, now I am on the other side of that at least for the foreseeable future.
For me the adaptation is more than frustration. Last year I did not take advantage of the racetrack, or the concerts at SPAC, or the exhilarating nightlife along Broadway on a Saturday night in Saratoga Springs. I trembled in silence abashed by the consequences of my mistakes. If we un-pause this summer I promise you I will not be clasping the remote waiting for the next film.
AS I APPROACH my house, I notice the neighbor in her driveway. We clashed in the most vicious ways the summer Rudy and I moved into the house. One time I think the police were brought in to settle the argument. It was because she placed a close circuit camera on her roof to track our renovation. She was retired and her husband was always fiddling in the shed. We gave her a purpose. She looked my way timidly. I smiled at her. This is the first time weโve been this close since I moved here two years ago. She smiled back.
โAre you happy to be back?โ she said in a quiet sort of empathetic tone.
โItโs taking time to adjust. I havenโt lived here in so long.โ
โI know. Well, not much has changed except for a few new restaurants. Do you plan on staying?โ
โI donโt know the answer yet. We had the house up for saleโฆโ
โ I noticed the sign.โ She said expectant of more information
โ I canโt maintain a hundred and twenty-seven-year-old house on my own. You know, Rudyโs gone.โ She nodded her head.
โWell, I donโt know how much longer Iโll be here either. Iโm eighty years old now.โ She dropped her head to the ground.
โLorraine you donโt look like it at all.โ
We continued on about my new tenants, her dog, and how much work it takes to maintain a painted lady historic home. I couldnโt believe how sweet her voice was, Iโd actually never heard her speak except one time shouting at me. Give up grievances and trivia because the person you once disliked may be very different now.
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The irony.ย When I first heard “Like A Rolling Stone” as a teenager, the lyrics saddened me every time I played it or it came on the radio. Then this song became my destiny.
“Once upon a time you dressed so fine
Threw the bums a dime in your prime, didn’t you?
People call say ‘beware doll, you’re bound to fall’
You thought they were all kidding you
You used to laugh about
Everybody that was hanging out
Now you don’t talk so loud
Now you don’t seem so proud
About having to be scrounging your next meal
How does it feel, how does it feel?
To be without a home
Like a complete unknown, like a rolling stone
Ahh you’ve gone to the finest schools, alright Miss Lonely
But you know you only used to get juiced in it
Nobody’s ever taught you how to live out on the street
And now you’re gonna have to get used to it
You say you never compromise
With the mystery tramp, but now you realize
He’s not selling any alibis
As you stare into the vacuum of his eyes
And say do you want to make a deal?
How does it feel, how does it feel?
To be on your own, with no direction home
A complete unknown, like a rolling stone
Ah you never turned around to see the frowns
On the jugglers and the clowns when they all did tricks for you
You never understood that it ain’t no good
You shouldn’t let other people get your kicks for you
You used to ride on a chrome horse with your diplomat
Who carried on his shoulder a Siamese cat
Ain’t it hard when you discovered that
He really wasn’t where it’s at
After he took from you everything he could steal
How does it feel, how does it feel?
To have on your own, with no direction home
Like a complete unknown, like a rolling stone
Ahh princess on a steeple and all the pretty people
They’re all drinking, thinking that they’ve got it made
Exchanging all precious gifts
But you better take your diamond ring, you better pawn it babe
You used to be so amused
At Napoleon in rags and the language that he used
Go to him he calls you, you can’t refuse
When you ain’t got nothing, you got nothing to lose
You’re invisible now, you’ve got no secrets to conceal
How does it feel, ah how does it feel?
To be on your own, with no direction home
Like a complete unknown, like a rolling stone.”
Songwriters: Bob Dylan
ยฉ Downtown Music Publishing, AUDIAM, INC
Photograph credit Jim Marshall
Three days later: The door is locked now, it will pop open now and then, in my interior rearview mirror. My secret can only be revealed after mounds of trust have been sifted and sealed. The former LouLou trusted, effortlessly, so the truth is I cannot behave that way anymore. Or can I? It is the most destabilizing force of emotion to accept I trusted someone who betrayed our thirty-five year “Huckleberry Friend” song. I don’t know how anyone else adapts to this. I’m kinda staring out the window, like a cat staring at an unreachable mouse. When I’m in this mood I listen to Bobby Darin and Tony Bennett, I’m a bleeding nostalgic.ย Photo Credit Philip Townsend. ” London in the Swinging Sixties.”
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Agent Keen and Reddington are educating me on how to fight evil and how to survive. All of my problems are theirs in some episode: mental torture, financial sabotage, abandonment, physical pain, betrayal, threats, and deceit. The only problem, is I am up till 3am watching it! In my humble movie mania opinion, this is the most outstanding drama-suspense-script perfect series. James Spader blows me away with his finesse in dialogue and authenticity. And how I wish to be more like Agent Keen, played superbly sincere by Megan Boone. There is a part of you in one of the characters, I’ll bet on that. https://www.netflix.com/title/70281312