Revising from the Inside Out


 

  1. I’m sitting outside in a flowerless garden because no matter how many flowers I plant, they only last one season, if that long. The garden is erupting out of its winter coat, and lime green buds will have to do for now. The sky that seals me in is licked with revisionary hope;  the kind that comes back laundered and fresh after a  recess from disbelieving in the possibility of a life correction.

Behind the garden, a neighbor is drumming a soft tribal beat, and on Palace Avenue, the choir is singing inside the Episcopal Church. Between these distinctive tastes, there are sparrows fluttering from fan to nest to fountain. The chattering sounds like, “here she comes, don’t come over here, get out of my nest, watch out for that fat crow.”

It’s a mind drift, to be caught in such unstructured beauty, away from the manuscripts, remotes, doors, and phones. It’s like being on an island out here. Everything we bring into our experience can be revised; a work of art, a way of speaking, thinking, portraying yourself, your way of loving, or lusting, and we all know about appearance, because our society shoves it down our throat.

Look at the possibilities in revising our patterns of behavior. What we accepted 20 years ago doesn’t mean it’s carved in our organs. We can transmute. The interior life needs lifting and tightening, just as our mind and muscles do. You won’t find any immediate remedy, or advertisements, or books on the subject because we’re consumers of products that change and revise only the visible tangibles. I wonder if I traded in my 11-year-old Land Rover for a new one if I’d be really happy, and for how long?

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ISADORA DUNCAN

My homework for the next few weeks.  Life corrections begin with edits, then revisions, and then you have a new story!

QUIRKY SANTA FE


The banner in front of Trader Joes read, Menopause Revival, and White Zen recognized Johnny Depp in Whole Foods, ” because they were skinny Hollywood types, and the cashier at Sunflower Market, piles up a dozen items, and then asks, if I want a bag? The DJ on Santa Fe Blue recites the weekly line-up, but he doesn’t know who the guest musicians are. It’s part of the quirky, puzzling, undefined tonality of Santa Fe.

THANK YOU


I apologize for not thanking you, but you the readers make writers like  me keep on

writing. I really appreciate you following me, my unraveling THE interior life, the life

inside of us, that is raw and uncensored. THANK YOU!

EXPECTATIONS


Some of us get more in life than we expected, some get less, and some never stay in one place long enough to
enjoy the harvest.

Passionate love is always an interlude, a gallop that ends in exhaustion.


SOMEONE WHO CANNOT LOVE IS A THIEF, AND STEALS FROM THOSE WHO CAN.  AS LONG AS THE TRUTH IS NOT BROKEN, AND WHEN IT IS,

Break Through 1995 "Walls break hearts, h...
Break Through 1995 "Walls break hearts, hearts break walls " (Photo credit: Pierre Marcel)

SHATTERED, THE THIEF RUNS IN COWARDLY STRIDES. YOU MUST REMEMBER THE BEST OF YOU, THAT ONE SUMMER,  WHEN YOU WERE UNSPOILED, AND GALLOP AGAIN.

THE SACRIFICE


To write, and to withdraw from the
universe, whether it is love, or
glory, you have to write.

TIME TO WRITE


Four in the morning, slipping into the silent darkness, when feelings are raw as oysters.

IRONING my OUTLINE


I just found the iron is a really good tool to iron out the plot, and outlines in your head. The smooth linear strokes of the iron implant some sort of continuity in the brain. IT WORKS

English: Ironing class at the Brisbane Technic...
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A MOMENT FOR ANAIS


“It’s a way of looking at obstacles as something to overcome; of looking at
what defeats us as the monster, created by ourselves, within ourselves,by our fears and therefore dissoluble and transformable. ”

MERYL STREEP


with Meryl Streep, 1978
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IF I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO, I THINK OF THE CHARACTERS MERYL STREEP HAS PLAYED; THEY ALWAYS MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION

WRITER WRECKS


BEING A GOOD WRITER DOESN’T MEAN YOU LIVE LIFE MORE WISELY;
IT’S THE OPPOSITE, MOST OF US
WADE IN DISASTER.

THE FAULT LINE IS OPENING


FALLING OFF
WE each carry a fault-line, that we teeter on, some closer than others. The emotional earthquake hit this week, it is a 9.1. The internal damage is not terminal, just part of growing.