HAHA IN SANTA FE


Geronimo and fellow Apache Indian prisoners on...
Geronimo and fellow Apache Indian prisoners on their way to Florida by train (Photo credit: State Library and Archives of Florida)

I go to the market, and buy six  items.” Do you want a bag?” he asks? “No I’ll juggle them on my head.” At the bar at Geronimo, ‘ Do you live here,” from the man sitting next to me. Gibberish weather, and wine conversation,  then I ask what his wife does, he turns his back and talks to the woman on the other side of him.  Another night at Geronimo, a man ( high dollar Texan) buys me dinner because he thinks I’m so different.. We decide to go dancing at El Farol. I meet up with two humorous gay fellas on the porch, and while having a cigarette, the man exits and leaves without a word. At La Po, the waitress asks me, why I am staying here. I tell her because my house is rented. ” Oh, do you still own it?” she says. The front page of Pasatiempo event guide is a story, ” Are you paying too much for pot?”

A man walks up to my porch, ” Are you open?”  “No, but come in” I say and he walks around and tells me he dreamth about my red room, as the office of his character in his screenplay.

Wells Fargo is my favorite. As  soon as you walk in, a bank hostess, sings, “Welcome to Wells Fargo” and then I wait 20 minutes for a teller. After that, I spend another twenty minutes watching what the clerk is doing because they always put my business income in my personal account. La de da, if you want to live like it’s all a joke, move to Santa Fe. It will transform your rigidness into a loosely tied knot of learning how to adapt, as if you were in another country.

The plumber who is amiable fun-loving man, whose name is Tim gives me a ride to Wells Fargo so I can pay him cash. Tim lived here all his life, but he’s having trouble finding a pen, and a calendar to mark the next payment date, and then we pass Wells Fargo, and he says, is this it? I say Tim, it’s been here a long time, and he says, I got so many jobs I don’t know what’s newer than 1960.

The streets are narrow and filled with pot holes, so when a delivery truck can’t find a parking space, they pull up on the sidewalk, and over the years, the sidewalks have bubbles, cracks, and are worn down. It requires tightrope talent, and if you wear stacked heels, you’ll never make it to the corner. My heel got stuck between two bricks and I had a hellava time breaking free.

TEST PILOT


THE FILM, stars Myrna Loy, Clark Gable and Spencer Tracy. At the risk of outrage from women who hate men, this film illustrates what a woman will and should do for the man she truly loves. The catch five is finding the right man to do it for!

 

http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/test-pilot/#

DREAMS ARE OUR BREATH


 

My dream slipped out. Has that ever happened  to you?
You wake up one day, and you’re watching the Olympics, with a robust cup of Italian Roast, and the bed is empty and unmade, and then there’s London, and the glorious athletes, their smiles crossing the world, and here in my room, I am mesmerized by the champions. I’m

 

Thomas Hicks running the marathon at the 1904 ...
Thomas Hicks running the marathon at the 1904 Summer Olympics (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

 

going to look for my dream today.

 

HONESTY BRINGS HONOR.


The interior dialogue that is MALICIOUS and masked from the outside world, rots and takes the man or woman with it. BE HONEST AND IF YOUR ENCOUNTERS AREN’T, TEACH THEM.

REMBEMBER YOUR BEST


Remember, who you were, at eighteen, bring her or him back, if they’ve gotten lost in the

Mount Disappointment from the west, May 2009.
Mount Disappointment from the west, May 2009. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

woods of disappointment.

One foot off the ground, eyes pinned to the crest of creativity, at eighteen all I wanted was freedom and adventures.  I wasn’t ever going to get married, and be tied down.  Hah, this is the path I took, sometimes Mount Disappointment.

 

THOUGHT


 

The Visibility of Thought
The Visibility of Thought (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Consumption of ones misery is as unpleasant as consumption of ones pleasure.

 

THE NOTEBOOK


I heard yesterday, James sent a notebook forewarning a psychiatrist at the University- of his murder plan. My arms were filled with laundry, I couldn’t leave the television, my body froze, the words in my head, ‘he asked to be recognized.’

UNMENTIONABLE MENTAL HEALTH


UNCERTAINTY LIVING


LIVING day to day without
any certainty is like being on the Titanic that won’t sink but is filled
with water, and sinking. 
It may be time to explain what adventures in livingness are; not just to you but to myself. The suspense: it drives us, we don’t have a cupboard of familiarity, it keeps changing, like the weather, most of us are single in this department. Sometimes acts of God and nature intervene, so we have no control over the next hour or the next year. The essentials, a home, food on the table, and some circle of family or friends that will hug you and say, I understand instead of ‘everything works out in the end.’  Imagination plays the hand in this kind of living, we dream a lot, we plan and then we change the plan, we are adaptable and that is what we strive for, to be adaptable, to lifestyles, cultures, location, and unfamiliar walks on roads our sneakers don’t know. 

MENTAL HEALTH — James Holmes


The unspoken disease that destroys the untreated, and kills the innocent.
I am outraged at such a senseless act, that maybe could have been avoided had someone taken notice of his behavior.

TIGHTNING THE WALLET


Limo Loren called today. He drives limos, does errands for clients, hangs out at the pool at La Posada, and brings the gals iced water. Today he was at the laundromat, and noticed someone searching for quarters.
” Here’s a few, hope it helps.”
” Oh thanks so much, I really appreciate it”
Loren said to me, ” Are things really that bad that a quarter can make a difference?
Even the customers at Whole foods are checking their receipts, that’s way different.”

ADVENTURE IN CHANGE


It is time to turn my life upside down, instead of moving furniture, my neurosis of constant change, it is interior change that I must make. Henry Miller says,  ”  Words by the way, can carry you into action, carry you into thought, instead of the other way around.”

Adventure, dreams, and escapism have guided me and maybe you, and now ( as a sudden rain storm begins) it is sketching what is necessary, unavoidable, and maybe even tedious.

Henry Miller, photographed by Carl Van Vechten...
Henry Miller, photographed by Carl Van Vechten, 1940 Jan. 22 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)