A passage from Anais Nin’s diary says, “Be careful not to enter the world with any need to seduce, charm, conquer what you do not want, only for the sake of approval. This is what causes the frozen moment before people and cuts all naturalness and trust. The real wonders of life lie in the depths. Exploring the depths for truth is the real wonder which the child and the artist know: magic and power lie in truth.”

 From my journal. We cannot unlock our mysteries when surrounded by extroverted behavior.  Over the years, the intensity of seeking solitude increased; shy in conversation, I turned to writing when I didn’t dare speak. I’m waiting for some release and joy so I can change course and find a studio in LA, but it is not happening. Life feels like a package I cannot unwrap.    

That was only two hours ago, and instead of ruminating on impatience, my pattern transformed.  I took a walk in a wind that blew the orange leaves in a choreographed dance, and watched.